How many of us can say that in any point in our lives we have really changed for another person? How many of us think we have changed only to look back and see the same old you?
Well not to long ago that was me, swearing that I would change, that I would be better and I would bring love into people's lives that would make their lives as complete as it would make mine- but alas now that I look back there was no change, there was just me using the same amount of energy to convince everyone (including myself) that this time it was not the same.
As sad as that realisation was it was nessesary- it made me see what I was doing and what I had to do should I really want to change my life.
And change is hard! Much harder than I had expected! It was not just my habits that had to change but who I was as a person, my character, my personality. And now half way through I am looking back and starting to see the change, starting to love the change. I have a long way to go but the first step is always the hardest and I have done that. Now you ask what if I should fail? Well then I just have to get up and start all over again- the beauty of change, of becoming a better person is worth it.
Now I feel I deserve the things in my life, deserve the smiles that greet me everyday and deserve the love of a person.
The beauty of change is simply amazing!
Why do think you need to change? Becoming a better person is all good and well, but never change who you are. Even the bad traits are good to have sometimes, they make us human.
ReplyDeleteFully agree : change can sometimes be a difficult challenge, sometimes necessary, but mostly it can be rewarding.
ReplyDeleteI raise my glass to the new you!